Have you ever considered the idea that you just want to fall in love? The moment is there, the feeling is right and you are just about to give in when you stop on your tracks and realized that nobody is there to catch you for that someone is catching someone else fall in his arms... This is my story. Learning love the hard way is the same thing that I never thought would happen to me. DC and I have been classmates way back in our gradeschool days...we were like both 13. He told he likes me a lot and that he cares about me but I pushed him away thinking that I was only 13 and would find another guy. I thought he was cute and a reallly nice guy. matter of fact, many girls were like having this crushes on him. DC is a special guy and he chose me. but I have this stupid attitude of just wanting to have the chase with the guy...liking him as long as i'm not aware that he likes me too. That's what happened with DC.
My family moved after my dad had his promotion that's why I was forced to changed school. DC made efforts to see in my new school, ask me out and called me on the phone. But I constantly ignored him. He was such a nice guy and i don't how dumb I can be.
I haven't thought him until I got these dreams of him and me together....happy together. That's when I became intruiged about him. I was a freshman in college when I got his number from a friend and called him up. He was friendly and he agreed to meet. We talked about everything, He mentioned his girlfriend whome he has been going steady for almost 2 years. The day we met was the only day I remembered having real conversation with him in 5 years time. He admitted to me that his girlfriend was the girl he dated after I pushed him away. We kissed and he hugged me tight. That night he called me up. I told him it was fun and we should do it again. He said these words to me "...i can't see you again. i thought i was strong and would be in love with you. i didn't fall for you this time because this time around i'm so sure that i never stopped loving you Sam..."
I told him that I love him but he told me that he can't survive another heartache from me. I told him I love him. I think that minute we were both ready to give another try but I can't... knowing that there is this girl who is also with him... she didn't do anything to hurt me. We just happened to be in love with the same great guy. I date but i'm not yet ready to have that commitment to someone knowing deep inside me i still love DC. Maybe in time. This is what i did for my true love or in this case didn't do for my true love. Madness and forever, i'll never share with the man that i love because i failed to tell him from the start...Mad Love...Sad Love...
This is for the DC's of the world that we failed to let them know how much we love them and then lose them in a heartbeat...from the Sam's of the world
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