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Love Story #1909
No Matter What They Say
by Becki
You're too young, you don't know what it really means to love, there's so much you don't understand, you're so naive...These are things I have been told all my life about relationships and about love. It's amazing how many "adults" think they know everything and that they are the number one experts on fate. But if you ask anyone of them to tell you about their first real love, they smile and tell you an incredible story about romance, true love, defiance, and perfection. Why then do they criticize Teenagers for saying I love you and being so committed so young?
I learned the answer to these questions with my first real love. Chris was different from other guys. I knew it from the moment we met. He had a hard exterior and a bad boy image, but he was sweet, smart, funny, and completely wonderful. And he had me hooked from the very beginning. But Chris had issues far deeper than I could’ve expected. He was into drugs, skipped school constantly, was in trouble in and out of school, and was pulled out by his Junior year. I was so drawn to his beaten path, though. It was as if someone out there had experience real pain and struggle as I had, and I couldn’t turn away from him.
Some people said that we weren’t meant to be, some said I was too good for him and vice versa, and some said we were perfect together, but there were things standing in the way. We came from two different worlds. I was a white preppy good girl from one of the richest parts of Arizona, and he was a struggling rebellious stoner from somewhere between the ghetto of Phoenix and my area. But we somehow figured out how to meet at the middle, and nobody could understand our relationship. We could talk for hours on end about everything and I was totally comfortable with him. We had overcome the first hurdle of seeing past our social boundaries, but we had many more to go.
My mom was very protective, and so Chris and I rarely saw each other outside of school, which really meant that a relationship was out of the question. I wasn’t allowed to date, go to parties, drive with anyone under 18, or have a life. Chris and I attempted 2 relationships during my sheltered days, but they just didn’t work.
And then he started to get really heavy into drugs. I was totally against them and hated the fact that he was doing them. We ended up losing sight of or friendship for about 8 months, but we found our way back. Eventually, he realized that he would lose me for good if he didn’t quit, so he did.
And then we told my parents a month after we began our fourth relationship attempt. The liked him at first, but little by little they began to pick, as all parents do. In an attempt to make them see that he was putting his life back together, I told them about the drugs and the disorders that he had. His fights with depression and anxiety attacks, and his fear of public places. I meant to show that he was learning to control them. They only took the negative and made it very difficult for he and I to be together. But we are slowly proving them wrong. He got a job, we’re both working on going to college in the fall, and planning on moving out by the end of the year. We have been together four months consecutively, but it has been a lot longer in our eyes. We have worked very hard to get to this point and we will continue to work hard to make this last. We both are realistic enough to realize that not all relationships last forever, especially at this age, but we are both optimistic enough to know that there is always a chance that we can prove other people’s doubts wrong. I love him, and that’s all that matters.
I have learned with this relationship that it is hard work and there is always the chance that I could get hurt, but that love at this age is at it’s purest, because it is seen not with the eyes or heard with the ears, but felt with the heart and meant from the soul. When parents warn you and say you’re too young, it is because they have lost sight of that young love feeling. They have grown too experienced and do not believe that such an inexperienced heart could feel real love. That is no fault of yours. Never let them tell you that you cannot love, because I know you can. I have learned more in the past four years with Chris than in my 19 years of life, even with all the difficult times I’ve been through. Do not fear love, for if you have never been hurt, then you have never lost, and losing love only makes you appreciate it more when it comes around again.
Notes From The Author:
You may e-mail me with any comments about my story.
I'm 18 years old and planning to take my writing to a career level. Please email me with any feedback you have. Don't forget to read my other work (An Unlikely Prince Charming-Topic:Soul Mates) or my poems (author-Becki). Thanx!
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