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Love Story #1977
Broken Hearted Agian
by Nici Johnson
You never know whats going to happen next in your life when you are 21 years old, but it gets worse when you hit the dance clubs..... and thats where I met him.
His name is Nathan, and the second we started to dance I knew it was magic. Well maybe I should start from the begining.
It was a typical Saturday night and I was just sitting in my room with nothing to do when one of my friends called me and asked me if I wanted to go to the complex, a dance club that we like to go to, and I was game, Hey it was a Saturday night and I didnt have anything to do.
SHe picked me up around 9:00 and we headed into Providence RI, which is only a half hour away cause I live in Mass., SO we got there and we were dancing and having a blast of a time, and I had only had about three drinks, and then I saw him, dancing there in the rock room of the club, tall smooth, and drop-dead-gorgious. I knew I had to have him, so I went up to him and said " Hi, Im nici, you want to dance with me" and thats when he said the words that have echoed in my ears ever scince " Hello sexy, Im Nathan, and I would love to dance with you for the rest of the night if you dont mind".
What was he crazy! Of course I didnt mind, so we danced all night long and when the DJ played "how you remind me" by Nickleback he leaned his head towards me and then kissed my lips, ever so gentally at first but then more passionately through out the whole song. I felt like I was dancing on air, I had fallen in love with someone I didnt even know, this wasnt me. I've done some stupid things in my time but never something like this I never believed in love at first sight....that is ....until that particular point in time, I was soooooo happy I couldnt believe it I thought "hey this guy could be the love of my life.
When the club started to close down for the night he walked my friend and me to her car, and him and I exchanged numbers. He told me that he lived in Connecticut so he would call me so I wouldnt be spending my money.
As my friend and I left I couldnt believe it, but I played it cool when she asked me if I thought he would call, I said " NAAAAAAH, I dont think so, guys do this sort of thing all the time!" but deep down I really hope he would.
The next day was Super Bowl Sunday and I was getting ready to go to a Super Bowl party with some freinds when the phone rang, not thinking anything of it I answered it with an impatiant hello, "UUUM, Is Nici there..." I couldnt believe it, he actually called, I was exstaic, and jumping for joy.
Nate and I made a date to meet the following Saturday to get to know each other better. We met at My brother-in-laws house, because thats where I was staying at the time. After talking for a few hours we went to grab my licence from my friends house, so he met my friends and they adored him, I knew they would. So after we left there we decided to go to a party that my friends were having at another house, they loved him as well, I knew they would to.
After that we went back to where I was staying and watched some movies for a little while, and snuggled up on the couch together. I knew I was in love but the realization hadn't hit me yet. It soon would!
We went on like that for a few months he came up to see me every Saturday and Sunday, and never left till the wee hours of the morning even though he had to work the next day.
Then valentines day came around and he came up to see me then as well and I had to babysit so we played with the kids then after that we exchanged our gifts I was also sicker then a dog so he got me a box of chocolates and a teddy bear wearing a pink bathrobe as a get well present, I was falling deeeper and deeper in love with him...
Soon after that, March first to be exsact I moved back home so that I could get back on my feet. Nathan was there to help me the whole way, Packing, moving, unpacking, it waqs so awful, and there was a lot of cleaning involved as well.
then about 2 weeks after that the realization was hitting me and I got scared to death. I started asking myself all these questions, like, " Do I really want a commitment? " and "why am I inlove?" and " how could this have happened" and Do I really want this?" I got soooo very very confused and it didnt help that I had people saying leave him leave him, and then others saying keep him keep him. I didnt know what to do, so I did the only thing I knew how to do at the time...I ran. I picked a fight with him blaming him for all my problems, even though it wasnt the case, and I hung up on him.
That was the last time I spoke to him.... until a month later when we bumped into each other at that same club, and he was making out with some girl just get me jealous, and I was fuming. Not even five minutes before that he went up to my friend and told her to tell me that he loved and missed me, so I realized that what ever fear I had before, I had to get over, and be a woman and go reclaim my man... and thats when I saw it.
He was kissing her with such passion and touching her so tenderly like he used to do to me.... I couldnt bare to see it any longer, I turned around and buried my face in my friends shoulder and sobbed my eyes out. All I could say through my blinding tears were, "how could he do this to me? what kind of mind games is he trying to play with me? How could he tell my friend how much he missed and loved me, then go screw around with some chick that is the nastiest thing I had ever seen? WHY WHY WHY?"
I left the club that night more depressed then ever. I had lost the battle, but promised my self that I would win the war!
about a month and a half later I went back cause a friend of mine and her mother who had never been there before wanted to go, so agian, I swallowed my pride and went with them, and there he was agian, almost like he ws waiting for me... He pulled me aside and aske dif we could talk I said that it would be ok if we talked. He appologized for his behavior and begged for me to take him back, and I couldnt resist him any longer. He was crying and I was crying and we fell into each others arms in a passionate kiss... GOd how I missed that kiss, we spent the whole time at the club in each others arms, and when we left and were about to get into our seperate cars he said " I love you Nici, Please no matter what happens, I love you and always remember that no matter what happens always remember that." That right there should have been my first clue.
The next day as I was walking out the door he called me and said " I know your out the door to work but I just had to say I love you one more time, and beg for you to forgive me for all the hurt I caused you, and all the hurt I may cause you in the end." Another clue I should have caught, but didnt. I couldnt, how could I? I was late for work as it was and still walking on air cause I was so in love with him.
That was the last time I heard from Nathan.... Until two months later when I was at that same club dancing with a male friend of mine and he dragged me away by my arm, and started screaming at me " YOU ARE MY WOMAN, NO GUY DANCES WITH MY FUTURE WIFE!" I was completely dumb founded, How dare he say those words to me after the everything he put me through, I understand that he was drunker then a street bum but what a nerve! I was royally steamed. I screamed at him to never touch me agian that I wasn't his girlfriend or his anything anymore and stormed off and danced with my male friend agian. He just sat there and watched me all night and when we all left he had the nerve to aproach me agian! Grabbed my arm and dragged me across the parking lot with my guy friends close behind us. Then he started screaming at me agian! " YOU ARE NOT LEAIVNG WITH THEM NO WOMAN OF MINE IS GOING TO LEAVE WITH A CAR FULL OF GUYS!" Well sorry to everyone reading this but I have to tell the truth I hauled of and decked him and I kept doing it until he let go of my arm. By then everyone watching...Including the cops... Just stood there with there jaws wide open, staring at Nathan with two already growing black eyes, bloody and swollen nose, and split lip. THey were shocked. Me, little Nici, who is 103lbs. and 5'3 just beat up a guy who is 6'5 and 230 pounds all muscle, I didnt even believe it my self, I just new I had to protect myself.
Looking back on it now I know he doesnt remember any of it happening, and I know he blames me for our break up, and I agree with him one hundred and ten percent, I should have voiced my feelings instead of getting scared and running away. Now I have lost the best thing that ever happened to me, I know that I will never get him back.
That was four to five months ago and I have been back to that club once scince then and I dont know if I will ever go back, I miss Nate and that club holds nothing but memorys for me. Maybe Someday he will find this storey and forgive me for all the hurt and pain and suffering tht my selfishness has caused him, and if that day ever comes I will be here waiting for my one and only lost true love.
So thats the story, sorry if I bored you but if you have any advice for me on how to get him back E-mail me and give it to me, thanks for listening.
Notes From The Author:
You may e-mail me with any comments about my story.
THis story is Dedicated to Nathan Fisk, I still love you with all my heart and I will wait for you till the day I die my love.
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